Your the only one who answers my 4am IMS ::long sigh:: ♥♥♥
I KNOW ITS NOT ONLY ME THAT CAN FEEL
THE TENSION.
::i have a feeling somethings gona blow::
we get the message....
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
candy rain lol
its 4:53am and i have to be up at 6:30am
but i choose to be on aim w| you,not cuz i
have to but because I WANT TO.You stimulate
my brain,you entertain me w| ure amazing conversation.
i secretly really wish you were..... scratch that believe me i like your Gucci belt & your Brooklyn raping skills : )
its 4:36am and I'm still up (0)_(0) i have class at 8:50am i need to be up in 2 1/2 hrs blahhhh,when i stay up really late i tend to talk and think about a lot of shit and i don't like it.My entire purpose of doing the things i do is to forget and not think.I DON'T LIKE THINKING ABOUT SHIT. i frustrate myself and cause myself stress i don't need but if i don't think about it or try to put it out there how the fuck will i ever be okay?.I'm going to bed now im fuckin myself up in the head i need to stop goodnight.
::LONG AGO PIC:: I never thought we would be where were at now we cant stand each other,we don't talk,were not even friends anymore.Were both selfish we wont let the other move on or be in peace.It's so disappointing to know when you call me it puts a damp on my day when it use to be the the total opposite,i really never wanted things to get this bad.but you don't try either,i sound like a broken fucking record and I'm honestly over all this shit.I don't care about where this goes anymore i see no future and at the end of the tunnel i see no light.I'm not trying to make you seem like the bad guy,because your not I'm at fault too.But you never made an effort...ever.I'm not perfect but i admit that.You can never say i didn't try YOU know i did,EVERYONE knows i did.You try to act like things are okay when there not ,not one bit.I gave you my all & got nothing in return,i shouldn't have to be a bitch or mean to you for you to be nice to me -_- .You just really need to be upfront w| me and maybe we wont leave things on a bad note.I still love you,you have been a very important person in my life but i can no longer say I'm in love w| you. . . . . . .It hurts and its my fault because i choose to stick around some way or another.How are we ever going to find true happiness when were both standing in each others way.I just need you to tell me I'm right about this&stop trying to act like you want this situation were in,I feel like i know you better than anyone and i know your not happy neither am i.All i ever asked was for you to be honest.i didn't ask for the moon,the sun,the stars,expensive dates,hanging out 24\7 all i wanted was for you to keep things 100 w| me and you fucked it up. Without no trust there is no us
Monday, September 28, 2009
“It’s only subliminal when someone’s conscience is affected. Otherwise, you’re just making a statement.” (via junglejustine)
Didn't do much just chilled in my house watched mad tv w| Chari,Pedrito and a lil while with Jose. it was a relaxing sunday ate mad food and spoke about mad shit, tried to watch a few movies but when me Chari and Pedrito together that does not happen lol anywho it was nice having them over. love em<3>
Chari was going in allllll nighttt Stacey ALWAYS a boost :) We can never stay home on a weekend,
we searched & searched till we finally found
something thanks god to stacey if not we
woulda been home super fucking tight
took us forever to get to the heightz but
it was worth it aside from the rain and
charina makein us wait 54368 million
hours it was great lmfao.
Eva is the boostttt ::DALE MENOR:: lmfao Jerelyn deff needs to party w| us more often shes an undercover party animal just like us. Last minute spanish party in the heightz i must admit was incredibly fun. of courseeeee :) scrunchy face & middle finger a classic when were drunk lol Tash is sexy w| her new bangs ;) DONE MUCH?! 0_0 I HAD THE CAMERA -_-
Pedrito&Stacey are tooo cauteeee ei ei ei ei dale dale dale daleeeeee
;) GOOD FUCKING TIMES I TOLD YOU she was going in. lol
I got home at 5:30am 0_0
i was saucedddd,high,drunk
w.e the fuck you wanan call it
just how i wanted to end my weekend.